Father's Day: Earthly and Heavenly Father

Last night as I bury my head in my pillow crying, I ask God to help me through this rough patch in my life.  I began to look for answers as to why I felt so upset and found myself looking at my nightstand that holds books I had read from school and bible classes.  After a few glances at them I realized that God was telling me that there was something in those books that I needed to read.

[Around the middle of March I had moved back home, quit my job, and lost a lot of friends.  If it were up to me at that moment in time I would have chosen to like my job, my living environment would be up to my standards, and I would have a bunch of friends that were loyal to me.]  After all of this I felt as if I had very little left in my life... so I thought.  When I moved back I began to feel lonely and hopeless about what I was suppose to do with my life.  As I read these books it kept talking about men and relationships and guarding your heart and I was just so confused.  I thought to myself why would God want me to be reading these books... maybe I misunderstood what God wanted me to read.  I closed the book and looked at the cover and then it hit me, "Captivating"!  The feeling of loneliness was gone, I felt loved and captivated by Him.  Like a little girl with no worries of the world, I felt peace with myself.

Looking back at about 3 months ago now, I wouldn't have changed a thing.  Although I am living with my parents (which is a big step back for me and where I was in my life for 8 months) I am very blessed to have them to help me live my life in the best and healthiest way possible.  Not only am I blessed for having a loving family but I have an eternal love from God that makes me feel captivated by Him daily.

With that I say happy Father's Day to my earthly father, Scott Butler, and my heavenly Father!  You comfort me daily and provide the knowledge to get me through my daily walk!